I'm tired of getting to know someone, and losing them. I've been through the 'Get To Know You' rollercoaster so many times, and yes it's fun and exciting, but I feel like my ride always ends at the top of the big drop off. All that energy build up and anticipation - for nothing. I've never felt what it's like to fall down the other end of the slope - what it's like to fall in love.
Sometimes I think I'm the one with the problem. I feel like a highly anticipated film that movie-holics would define as a Box-office Fluke. I'm all controversey, nothing more. The previews prior to the movie say I'm "different, amazing and not like other girls". Ironic how I end up the same as the others - another ex-girlfriend.
I have the notion I'm forever doomed in relationships. I'm constantly waiting around for the guy to let me down. And when it does happen, I had only further proved myself right of my theory. But don't mistake me, I'm all open for someone to prove me wrong.
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