Sunday 19 March 2006

Leftovers

Leftover
noun. Boys of whom have already given the best of himself to someone else.


This goes out to the girls out there who continually find themselves stuck with 'The Leftovers.'

This goes out to the girls who have never been "His First True Love', 'The One', or 'That Girl'; but rather - the one after 'His First True Love', the girl after 'The One', or the girl who came after 'That Girl'.

This goes out to the girls who are smart, funny, amazing and beautiful - but seemingly not enough so compared to a significant other from his past.

This goes out to the girls who always find themselves second in line to an encore relationship, and have a hard act to follow.

This goes out to the girls who are make do with the short end of the stick, the lower end of the deal - the boy who just came out of the best kind of love he's ever known - to date.

This goes out to the girls who will never know what it's like to be the most unforgettable, because 'you never forget your first true love'.

This goes out to the girls who end up hurting due to a relationship they had NOTHING to do with. But instead, end up nurturing and comforting an injured heart, finding themselves drawn towards a guy who's not yet ready, who just got out of a bad relationship, who is confused about his feelings - concerning you AND her, who is a little more reserved, who is a little less trusting, and a little less willing to put as much effort into girls anymore.

This goes out to the girls who play nurse to a boy with a broken heart, aware that upon recovery there's a big chance he'll run back to her... because 'there's just something about her'.

This goes out to the girls who will never understand the way she just hurts him, the way he just takes her back, or the way we put up with it.

This goes out to the girls who are willing to make him their world - given the chance. Given that he's moved on. Given that you're NOTHING like her, but can make him just as happy - if not happier, if not for longer... But aren't because he's still fixated on the same old girl, the same old vision of the future and the same old routine for so long that he doesn't know otherwise. And maybe he doesn't want to, because he put in too much time to let go, maybe not even for you.

This is for the girls who know what it's like to be with a boy, whose heart still belongs to someone else, regardless of how much he says he cares about YOU and loves YOU and feels for YOU. We know it's partly, if not all about HER. Competing against someone tucked away in the back of his mind.

This goes out to the girls who have been made to feel like second rate quality girlfriends, silver medal winners who never quite make the cut. Rebounds.

Know that there's a reason why God made things this way. I have yet to find out for myself. Maybe it's because we're stronger than the girls who walk over our men like dirt. Maybe it's to make us all the more appreciative when 'Mr Right' does finally come along. A kind of appreciation that only comes from years of tending to 'The Leftovers'.

After all, is it not the best that is saved for last?

Where words fail, music speaks...

Almost Doesn't Count - Brandy

Almost made you love me
Almost made you cry
Almost made you happy, baby
Didn't I didn't I
You almost had me thinkin'
You were turned around
But everybody knows
Almost doesn't count

Almost heard you saying
You were finally free
What was always missing for you, baby
You'd found it in me
But you can't get to heaven
Half off the ground
Everybody knows
Almost doesn't count

I can't keep on lovin' you
One foot outside the door
I hear a funny hesitation
Of a heart that's never really sure
Can't keep on tryin'
If you're looking for more
Than all that I could give you
Than what you came here for

Gonna find me somebody
Not afraid to let go
Want a no doubt be there kind of man
You came real close
But everytime you built me up
You only let me down
And everybody knows
Almost doesn't count

Maybe you'll be sorry
Maybe you'll be cold
Maybe you'll come runnin' back, baby
From the cruel cruel world
Almost convince me
You're gonna stick around
But everybody knows
Almost doesn't count

So maybe I'll be here
Maybe I'll see ya 'round
That's the way it goes
Almost doesn't count

Tuesday 14 March 2006

Boys are supid, throw rocks at them

WARNING
The following entry may contain foul language that may be offensive to some readers. Viewer discretion is advised. It contains frequent coarse language, sexual references and rant from a pissed off, male-hating (at the present moment) bitch. Every girl who's 'too nice' is entitled to her moments; and this one's mine.

Relationship Rule #1
Thou shall not compare me to her.

For the first time since pre-school, fighting over the slide, it's about ME, ME, ME!
You're with us now. Your relationship with us is NOT a game of spot-the-difference. We don't care who was prettier, smarter or funnier. We want to know that there's certain feelings you have for only one person in the world, that being me.
Thanks for treating me like an individual.

Relationship Rule #2
Thou shall not bullshit.

Keep it to yourself, we prefer you look constipated than feed us with your crap.
Your attraction to us is not a seal of approval, nor a sign from God, that you've actually moved on. So until you have, save that distasteful "I Love You" for when it's truly relevant. Say it because you mean it, not because you're trying to convince yourself that you do. You'll save both of us a lot of unnecessary trouble, two confused people in the world is two confused people too many. So in a way, you're doing humanity a favour. You deserve a medal.
Thanks for not playing me like a fool.

Goodbye - Alicia Keys

How do you love someone
That hurts you oh so bad
With intentions good
Was all he ever had...
What went wrong with something once so good

How do you find the words to say
To say goodbye...
When your heart don't have the heart to say
To say goodbye...

I know now I was naive
Never knew where this would lead
And I'm not trying to take away
From the good man that he is...

Was it something wrong that we did?
Because others infiltrated?
What went wrong with something once so good...

Is this the end, are you sure
How should you know when you've never been here before
It's so hard to just let go...


I got my Learner's Lisence on Saturday. The road is no longer a safe place; sorry folks. On the way to the Motor Registry my mum was getting agitated by this L-plate driver in front of us. Didn't she realise that that would be me one day? I want to learn manual but I'm not so keen on paying for the lessons. For starters, my family doesn't even own a manual car. On the way home, mum ran a red light. There goes my last resort, learning from her may not be the safest idea. I love her.

Later was Benjo's 16th birthday dinner. Present was Chiz, Alvie, Gelli, AJ, Danica, Sancho, Denielle, Elias, Ivan, Aileen, Gil and I. It was evident that Pancakes weren't the only thing On The Rocks that night. It appeared to be a trend among the girls that night. You dick waggers really need to get your act together, or else we're going lesbian.

"It's hard to find a man who can live up to any of my woman friends" - Jeniffer Aniston



Luckily, the orgasmic tasting food distracted us for a good hour. Cheers to those lip-smack-tastic barbeque ribs. I recommend it to everyone. If you're anything like Chiz you'll be glad it comes with salad and wedges.
There's nothing like a night on the harbourside. The amazing view, the breathtaking atmosphere and incredible friends to match.

On Sunday, Chester's little sister Rheannon walked into a wall, and was fine. It was the cutest thing in the world. She likes to take me away from my boyfriend, hold my hand and show me her toys. It was the cutest thing in the world. When Chester was younger he cut the hair off his stuffed lion because he thought it was growing. Now I know where Rheannon gets her cuteness from.

I feel better now. Hey isn't that like the slogan to some television ad? I can't quite put my finger on it. But really, I do.